Man, I am so pissed. Shit. Damn all of this work to Hell.

I got a 3 (out of 5) on my AP Drawing portfolio which included a lot of the work that you see around this site. When I found out, I was pretty angry, but hoped that they might give me credit for it anyway. Nope. The entire year last year I wasted countless hours upon hours doing the pieces and getting them done in time to send in, and it was all for absolutely nothing.

Fuck personal improvement if I'm having to do this crap because I have to. All of these people telling me, "ooh ahh," how great this drawing is or that drawing, well it doesn't mean shit if people who are actually judging think they suck. And they're right, what am I playing at? If you can't draw absolutely fantastic drawings with deep and endless meanings, then it's nothing more than a useless hobby. And even if you can, you can't even use your passion as your job because you'll end up broke.

I must look like an utter loser keeping all of these crappy drawings in a portfolio and showing them to people who ask to see them. Like, "look at me, I'm showing off complete crap!" Fuck that, fuck these drawings, fuck "talent." It's all bullshit.